Monday

I did it again. Five miles, I mean. Yippee! It IS cause for celebration, considering I really had to MAKE myself do it...and considering I'm feeling fat and frumpy as ever. PMS? Probably, but I hate the feeling anyway, even if there is a logical and physiological explanation for it.

I just wish I could SEE results already. I know I have a LONG way to go, but I just wish I felt there was some progress. I'm watchng for my clothes to fit better...or at the very least, I'm anxious to get into the things I wore 2 summers ago....a whole size smaller than what I've become...meaning I gained all of 25-30 lbs back...boo hoo.

You all know that I am the consummate DESTINATION PERSON....I just really don't enjoy a journey. The only one I can say I am enjoying is the one I'm on in raising my kids...of course it ain't without its stresses and challenges (duh), but its mostly fun. I'm gratified to see my girls getting poised to strike out on their own...and my boys are just plain fun.

But for ME, the growING part of BEING is hard...

But, I did it anyway. And I'll have to be patient for the results.

I suppose that's enough whining for today...I'll post this, and then will consider popping on again when I have something positive and uplifting to say.

I do wish anyone reading this a GREAT MONDAY...and a great week ahead.

Thursday's Musings

Well, here we are again...dreading moving. I must say, tho, that Connor is inspiring me..."extracise" as he calls it. Funny.

So, I'll go see if I can do something. Anything.

Thing is, I really need to go to the store; I hate to get all sweaty b/c then I have to clean up. I really do not enjoy primping. Is that an age thing? I'd really rather just wash and go...no makeup, no hair fix, ... just go. But I do have SOME pride.

So, I will report back on what I manage to do today. Might be nothing more than a mile...but I'll do it.

Too much silence??

Well, I've put off writing for a variety of reasons. One, I'm trying to really limit my time on the computer. When I do avoid it, I really avoid it. For a whole day at least!

Two, I just haven't had anything to whine about. And I don't figure there's any need to whine. Or at least that people do not want to read my whining.

As for my resolve to MOVE more...well, I have done fair. Did not make it today due to a short morning and having to be out of the house for Bible study...but yesterday, I'm happy to gloat, I did FIVE MILES with Leslie Sansone! In my own bedroom! I did 5 one-mile segments on the DVD I have. Not bad. I worked up a sweat, to be sure, as my hips and rear were KILLING me. That's gotta be a good thing, right?

I really did not FEEL like doing it at all..but MADE myself, and then was happy I did it. Thing is, I'm not feeling especially 'better' over all -- not a ton of energy (and I'm supposed to, right?)...not sleeping better at night...? So that is kind of discouraging. I want it NOW.

I am not focused on the weight loss...that'll only REALLY depress me...but I am focusing on MOVING more consistently. That's gotta be good in and of itself.

In other news...
Mark is heading home from Chicago as we speak. It was a short trip, to finalize connections for a big loan up there...next week he's in CA; week after that...I am not sure. I do think he is out of town for a couple days every week now for several running.

The thing I dread most about that is having to do Colton's factor infusions. Its not that I "can't" do it...its just that I don't like having to do it...and Colton really prefers Mark to do it. So, I dread that.

Other thing is that until Kate gets a car of her own, we have one between us when Mark is gone (he drives and parks at the airport)...so if she has to work in an evening when I also have somewhere to be...its a bit complicated and inconvenient. Hopefully soon she'll have her own wheels and this will no longer be an issue.

So, there you have it. The lastest and greatest news from our front.

Drop a line and let me know how you are doing. I'll let you know when Leslie and I make 5 miles again (hopefully tomorrow!)